My Weight Loss Challenge

Okay, here I go again setting weight loss goals for myself. This time, the difference is…this time I am going to meet them. I have undertaken a project that is supposed to increase my income by more than $1,000 a month by the end of the next six months. So, I have decided to make a priority to lose 30-35 pounds in the next 6 months. Now, if it takes longer than 6 months, that is not a big deal. As long as I see progress I will eventually achieve this goal. The end result is to be able to have abdominoplasty, sometimes called a tummy tuck. My concern is more the excess fat around my stomach than having the stomach of a teenager. I believe I heard a rumor that the hospital that did my gastric bypass surgery performs this procedure for a very reasonable price for their weight loss surgery patients. There it is…what I want to do.

Now, some of things I am going to change or do to get there. Even though, I drink only diet pop, it is not something that is attributing to my health and something I can do without. I remember eliminating soda from my diet once before and it was a good time in my life. I weighed more, but I felt like I was making positive changes. I have already eliminated much of the sugar I had been eating, but unfortunately I have replaced it with other things that are now problematic. This is something that I will have to address in the next week. I have found that actually taking the time to evaluate how I feel and eat only when I am hungry goes a long way to helping me lose weight. The other thing I have done is gone back to my personal trainer. I feel like my muscles are weak and I want that gone. This is going to go a long way in getting me where I need to be as long as I stick with it. We will see. I don’t see failing as an option.

My job is something that I find stands in my way of living the life that I want. I make okay money, but I have excellent benefits. I have a business on the side that will give me enough money that I probably would not need a corporate job in 6 months to a year. But I have struggled with money for so long that I don’t want to find myself in that place ever again. And then there are the benefits…the medical insurance is adequate, I have never seen better insurance for prescriptions and my dental insurance coordinates with my husbands and I have double coverage. They also offer long-term care insurance at a group rate along with a few other things that most other companies do not offer.

Here is the problem. There is large amounts of chaos and drama. I have the capability to work from my home, but this company is “old school” and they do not feel that unless you are confined in a cube that you could be working. My drive is more than 30 minutes one way and the 60 minutes that I have to take for lunch all eat into time that could be better spent. The other problem is how I feel when I am there. I feel angry all the time. I make many of the decisions and solve many of the problems for my department. Yet, I report to someone else and it just causes stress that I do not need. The big problem is I can “retire” in 4 years and take all of my benefits with me, but I don’t know if I can hold out that long. And all of this has a big impact on my eating and my overall health.