I don’t know why, but I always struggle with this time of year. Tomorrow will be my anniversary. I will be clean and sober eight years. Getting through today was not easy. I guess because I had a major relapse eight years ago today, I always think about it and it is kind of depressing.

I can’t believe I am saying this, but I think I will be glad to get back to work just to have my routine back. I do better if I have my days all planned and have a schedule to stick to and I did not do that very well with the last 4 days I was off. I am also kind of in limbo with my extra income. One stream seems to be drying up and the other one doesn’t seem to be taking off as fast as I would like it too.

But these things seem to change all the time. Hopefully, they will stabilize soon.

Getting to a meeting isn’t always easy. There are any number of things that limit us from being able to make the scheduled meetings in our town, but there are telephone meetings and online meetings. Someone left me a comment requesting information on online meetings. Here is a link to a site that contains a wealth of recovery tools in addition to access to online meetings: http://www.therecoverygroup.org/. I just love this site. You can chat online, get a sponsor and get information on the 12 steps in addition to the online OA meetings that take place every 3 hours. This a good place to go if you find yourself in a situation where you could benefit from some experience, strength and hope. If you need to talk there is always someone here.

There is a lot being said about mortgages right now, because so many are in default. Whether your mortgage is a cheap mortgage or a remortgage, it is something that you have to be able to make payments on for several years.

Many lenders try to entice borrowers by telling them that regular pay increases will cover any deviations in their mortgage payments due to creative financing. This is where the problem comes in. You cannot count on regular pay increases. They are not a given. Getting a mortgage on the condition that you will get a 3% pay increase each year is not wise. There are only to guarantees in life and we all know what they are. Having a job, let alone getting an annual increase, is not one of them.

In recent days I have done much better with my eating and I feel a lot better. I’ll bet I am the only person that has a personal trainer that managed to gain 5 pounds in a week. I am also going to turn around and lose that same 5 pounds this week. I still haven’t exercised as much as I wpuld like, but I have exercised more than in the past. I am relatively focused at this point. I have not had candy in about 5 days. However, I did have some cake. Work is my weakness. If I could work form home, I would be all set. That is an easy statement to make and it is not true. Working at home would just present a whole new set of challenges. I just have to take each challege is it comes and each day as it comes.

It is that time of year again. Time to shop and select Christmas gifts for family and friends. Electronics make great gifts. There is something for everyone.

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I met with my personal trainer tonight. I had a good workout, but I gained weight. When is it going to sink in that I have to make changes in order to lose weight. What is that they say about doing the same thing and expecting different results. I am having some issues with balance. I am putting too much into this project I am working on and not enough into the other areas of my life. I have been staying up really late. I haven’t been exercising or managing my home effectively. This weekend I will have to do some catching up.

It won’t be long and I will probably need new carpeting. We are also in the process of putting tile on the sunroom floor. Wfca.org has several tools that make choosing flooring easier. The one that I especially found helpful is the virtual room designer.

This tool allows you to select from a variety of room styles. After you have made your room selection, you are given several flooring types to choose from, such as; tile, carpet and hardwoods. Once you have selected your flooring type then it is time to select a color. This tool gives you an idea of what your selected flooring will look like in your home. Come on over and see what wfca.org has to offer.

Well, my personal trainer is not going to let me get away with slacking although I already have. She called me and wants me to come tomorrow night. I might as well. I have nothing else to do and I am at a pretty bad place right now. Maybe that will help me break out of the spot that I am stuck in. Tomorrow is the ladies gift exchange and I feel like I just am not doing anything well. Everything is being done about half and that has to change. Hopefully, tomorrow I can be more organized.

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Well, I think I am going to cancel my appointment with my personal trainer. It has been snowing most of the day and I just got home and I really don’t feel like going back out in the mess. This seems like a convenient enough excuse to me. I just wish I did not feel this way.