Today is Sunday and this is the day that I set goals that I will try to meet in the upcoming week. The last week was not such a good week, with me losing two of my blogs. I have got the one running and I am still working on the other one. I would like to be one of these people that can embrace adversity and jump right in to overcome it. I do that, but it takes me 2-3 days to get to that point. In 2-3 days time, I can do some serious damage to myself and my thinking. Fortunately,the 3 days is up and I am to the point where I am past that. I am now ready to move forward.

On to the goals:

1. I will have more contact with my OA sponsor. This is an area I am falling short in. She has done what I have not been able to do yet and she can help me with her experience, strength and hope.

2. No eating in front of the screen. I have a habit of eating in front of my computer and the TV. I know this leads to mindless eating, especially if you are eating from a container that has more than 1 serving.

3. Keep a food journal. Ideally, I would like to do this 7 days a week, but 5 days is probably more realistic. Keeping a journal should make me more aware of what I am eating and if there are any emotions involved with that eating.

4. Add an extra meeting to my weekly schedule. I seem to feel like I have a better chance of succeeding after I attend a meeting. I am hoping that attending more meetings will help me feel optimistic more often. Even if it doesn’t, I have never known attending a meeting to do any harm.

There you have it. These goals seem more attainable than some I have set for myself in the past. That is intentional. I need the feeling of power you get from accomplishing something in you life. Next Sunday, I will let you know how I did.

I thought I was having a bad time when I wrote my last post, it got worse. I accidentally deleted files from 2 different blogs and they both disappeared. I have one with the higher PR up and running, but I am struggling with the other one. My hosting company is working on it and hopefully by tomorrow things will be back in order. But in the mean time, it gives me an excuse to eat. I am going to talk to my OA sponsor about some writing or reading that my help me move forward with being a healthier person.

Well this day did not turn out as planned, but than that probably happens to a lot of people. I played hooky from work, because I needed it. I have been trying t upgrade my final blog. The other 2 went fine and I thought this one should be a piece of cake. Guess again. I have been working on it all day and cannot figure out what is wrong. I think I may be getting close. You are probably wondering what this has to do with weight loss. Well, I am an emotional eater. As long as things are going my way, I do pretty well, but let me experience stress and it is on. I will find myself eating just to deal with it. I am struggling to get past emotional eating. I have yet to find something that I can substitute for the eating. So, needless to say I ate more than I should have and the only thing that kept me from indulging in about 1000 calories of my favorite candy was the fact that the store was out. I guess I should thank God for small favors.

Things did not go as well this week as I had hoped, but tomorrow is a new week.  I did not get my extra meeting in this week, but  I will get it done this week. I enjoy writing, so I think that a food journal would be a good idea. The type I have done in the past is comprehensive. You are expected to record your emotional state at the time that you are eating, along with where  you are eating, if you are alone, if you are hungry and if you are satisfied when you are done. Doing this may help me get closer to what causes me to eat compulsively. I also am at the point where I have to decide what I am willing to give up and what are the foods that I have no control over and should never eat again. The only problem is “never” is a long time. I also have to come to terms with the concept of eating to live, instead of living to eat.

I have come to the conclusion that I need to attend more OA meetings. I find myself being more motivated after attending a meeting. One meeting a week just isn’t enough, but the problem is working it in amongst work, exercise, other meetings and blogging. Oh, I forgot the CPM exam I am supposed to be studying for.

I have also found a low-carb eating plan that I think I can follow. It allows me a certain amount of carbs as long as they are not sugar, such as; doughnuts and things like that. One of my biggest problems is the planning part of eating. You have to have healthy foods with you at all times. If you don’t it will be a good excuse to eat something that is not healthy and part of your food plan.

These are my goals for the week. I am going to try to stick to my low-carb eating plan and to attend an extra meeting this week.