It seems for every one day I spend away from my normal routine, I get two days behind. When I become overwhelmed, I use it as an excuse to eat. I like to plan out my day and follow the plan, but it rarely plays out that way. I am often interrupted so often that I may be lucky to get through the first item that is on the plan. This causes me to feel overwhelmed and this feeling makes me less likely to accomplish things in other areas of my life, not to mention that eating I will most likely do.

When I tried to lose weight in the past, it seemed like I was capable of sticking to a plan long enough to get off twenty or thirty pounds. Ever since I have started attending OA meetings, I have felt more overwhelmed than ever. There does not seem to be enough time to accomplish the minimal amount of things I need to get done to move forward with my life.

Another food addict told me that if I put my program first, everything else will fall into place. I know she is right, but I am having a hard time following through. I listen to people tell their story and how things happened for them and wonder when it will happen to me. I would like to try online meetings and see how they work. They would be easier to fit into my schedule. The bad thing is I am online so much that I am afraid I would be multitasking during the meeting.

I will try to do 15-20 minutes of step writing hoping for God to show me a small amount of clarity. I think a small amount will help head me in the right direction.

Tags: Just for Today, recovery, OA, Overeaters Anonymous, Twelve Step program