They say that is all you have to do is put your recovery first and the rest will follow. I wish I could put more faith in that thought. I feel it takes “me” to make everything go. I guess that is my controlling nature. I have been off work for the past 3 days, yet I cannot seem to stay away from my email. The thought of having to sort through it all in order to get caught up, overwhelms me. I wish I could let go of these things. I believe I would have an easier time getting to the root of why I eat if I could let go of some of the things around me. I need to figure out what I want in my future career wise. I don’t think I want to be where I am now. I feel as I sort through the unknowns in my life, I will begin to be less compulsive about my eating.

I just attended my first online OA meeting. I found it interesting and I believe these meetings may give me the extra strength I need to make my way through this process. You can get anything at an online meeting as you can a meeting that you would attend in person. The topic, this evening was the 10th step. It seems you can find meetings almost any time of the day or night. You can even get a sponsor online, if you so desire. With this option, I look forward to attending a meeting daily.