They say that is all you have to do is put your recovery first and the rest will follow. I wish I could put more faith in that thought. I feel it takes “me” to make everything go. I guess that is my controlling nature. I have been off work for the past 3 days, yet I cannot seem to stay away from my email. The thought of having to sort through it all in order to get caught up, overwhelms me. I wish I could let go of these things. I believe I would have an easier time getting to the root of why I eat if I could let go of some of the things around me. I need to figure out what I want in my future career wise. I don’t think I want to be where I am now. I feel as I sort through the unknowns in my life, I will begin to be less compulsive about my eating.