Well tomorrow is my night to meet with my personal trainer and I am not ready. I have not really done any of the things she has asked me to do. I exercise more, but not enough. I guess I should be grateful for that, but since I am all or nothing person, I struggle when I don’t achieve near perfection. Why do I have such a hard time forgiving myself and accepting myself for who I am. This has not been one of my better weeks as far as that goes.