I don’t know why, but I always struggle with this time of year. Tomorrow will be my anniversary. I will be clean and sober eight years. Getting through today was not easy. I guess because I had a major relapse eight years ago today, I always think about it and it is kind of depressing.

I can’t believe I am saying this, but I think I will be glad to get back to work just to have my routine back. I do better if I have my days all planned and have a schedule to stick to and I did not do that very well with the last 4 days I was off. I am also kind of in limbo with my extra income. One stream seems to be drying up and the other one doesn’t seem to be taking off as fast as I would like it too.

But these things seem to change all the time. Hopefully, they will stabilize soon.