Well, me eating hasn’t been quite what I want it to be the last few days, but I keep telling myself that I am not perfect and I will get through this as long as I don’t give up. My weight has been up and down, but it is more down than up and I am happy for that.

I keep walking. I am not sure the last day that I didn’t walk for at least 20 minutes. I feel more optimistic than I have in a long time. My routine for making healthy decision is relatively steady and consistent. Now I need to be more consistent with making good decisions that will have me debt free in about 2 years. That is a little bit harder than the food and exercise decisions at this time. Most of my poor spending decisions have to do with food. If I can get past eating out so much, my debt will go down faster.

I had a sponsor that said make a list of what you are willing to give up and start there. A list of deal breakers (things you are not willing to compromise on) is also a good idea. Adjusting these lists regularly will let you see what you have made progress on and what needs work. I have given up a lot of foods due to how the sugar or carbs make me feel, but being an addict there are still times that I will do things even though I know I will regret the outcome. What are you will to give up to get what you want?

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I have set a weight loss goal of 5 pounds per month. This may not sound like much and may not seem aggressive, but I have learned that for me aggressive is not good. I have a hard time attaining aggressive goals and when I don’t reach them I feel let down. This feeling opens the door for me to fall back into destructive patterns.

As long as I am not gaining weight and I am doing healthy things, I am all right with that too. For me losing weight and living healthy is more about what goes on in my head than what goes into my mouth. More distinctly put, what goes on in my head has a direct bearing on what goes into my mouth. So, I spend a lot of time trying to manage my thinking and the environment I find myself in.

I have taken a few days vacation and I am trying to walk early enough in the morning so that I am done before the 90 degree temperatures hit. I have also been trying to get 20 minutes in after the sun goes down. I have really begun to enjoy walking. It allows me to multi task (probably something I do to much of). Not only do I get exercise, but it allows me time to think about plans for the day or for the future, in general. I feel walking allows me time with my Higher Power, especially when I am in the park and close to nature.

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Okay, so it has been awhile. A lot has gone on in the past 6 months…some of it good and some it has been a challenge. I have not gone to a lot of meetings lately, but I do feel that I have grown spiritually and in many other ways.

I am using a food plan that is working well for me. I am not completely abstinent, but I have limited the amount of sugar and carbs that I consume daily. I am slowly losing weight and I am happy with that. But the best part is I have found an inner peace. I am not obsessing over my weight and when I make bad choices, I am able to recover from it and move on. This is new for me. In the past, once I binged, it was all over. That was my excuse for giving up and going back to old behaviors.

I have learned to enjoy walking. Before it was always a chore. My husband and I ride bikes together once or twice a week. Except for my debt (I am making progress there also), I feel like my life has never been better than it is now.

Tags: Just for Today, recovery, OA, Overeaters Anonymous, Twelve Step program